2 posts tagged “hate”

this will be boring to anyone not studying for the bar exam, and mostly serves a listmaking function for me.  now is when i have to start actually getting down the business of memorizing a ton of black letter law for the bar exam.  i have a practice bar on thursday and i feel pretty certain i'm going to tank it.  hopefully this will be the proverbial fire under my ass. 

we had a lecture the other day from a guy who really kinda cut through all the bullshit for me.  the bar exam is a licensing test, and it is basically a test of reading comprehension.  i have to slow down and just read all the questions. i have to do a million essays, including MPTs. 

i just found the refill i had packed away for my favorite pen, and i have new pencils and colored pencils and a cool big eraser from katra.  i made myself a delicious iced coffee and kicked walt out of the office--i need a study hole.  i love his friend who is here visiting; he is a great guy and an excellent houseguest.  but walt had to move his operation downstairs and hang out with hsi friend and keep me away from the dogs and the tv and the kitchen.  up here, as soon as i finish writing this, i can tune the world out and bust out some book learnin'.  wish me luck y'all.

god i'm fucking tired of this state.  i went and voted this morning, but i don't think it's gonna matter.  we had one of the dirtier campaigns i have ever witnessed here in old virginny this year, and i lived in new orleans for over three years so i know from dirty political campaigns.  in the end, i voted for the mysogynist instead of the secretly jewish, self-loathing racist homophobe.  great choice. 

we also got to vote on three constitutional amendments this year, but only one that really makes me wish i was already out of this state.  this article says it better and more thoroughly than i can.  the part at the end about the guy in ohio who choked his live in girlfriend and the same advocacy group that supported the amendment rushing to say that the domestic violence laws don't apply to him is just disgusting.

i wasn't sure at first what the big deal about the domestic violence v. assault and battery thing, so i asked someone who knows better.  she said that there is a whole range of protections that come along with a domestic abuse situation that you don't get for a simple assault.  there are treatment options, protection options, and even the availability of temporary housing and special restraining orders that are not available or not available in the same manner to those who are simply victims of assault.

but today walt and i were the youngest people in line to vote.  and it was a long line.  they had the language of the various amendments printed out on a big table that you looked at as you were waiting in line.  walt and i knew nothing about the other two issues, so we looked at those ones.  i watched as the old ladies behind us scrutinized the papers.  several of them said out loud "well i know how i'm voting on this one!" pointing to the first.  and maybe i'm wrong.  maybe the consequences are not unintended.  maybe they would judge my relationship and cohabiting situation with walt with as much disdain as they would a same sex couple who would be married or civilly united were it not for the existing incredibly harsh virginia laws.

i am reminded of another famous situation regarding marriage that virignia was involved in kind of a long time ago.  the case was captioned "loving v. virginia," kind of appropriate considering the subject matter.  the case, involving virginia not recognizing the marriage of an interracial couple, was resolved by a resounding smackdown from the supremes.  i guess that's what we have to hope for at this point, that our "activist court" will say "look, motherfuckers!  you are state actors and as such you must offer equal protection under the law!"  i truly believe that part of the reason why there is still so much bigotry against homosexuals in this country is because it is institutionally encouraged.  people are allowed to vote their own personal bigotry and moral judgment and that gives their hatred the color of law.  hopefully there will be a point in my lifetime where my kids ask "geez, mom!  weren't you embarassed to be part of a country that treated worthy, patriotic, contributing members of society as second class citizens?" 

it's so demoralizing.  i feel like there will always be something like this.  the separation of church and state is such an illusion.  gay people are not trying to get married in your church, and if they were, that would be a totally different issue.  all they want is to be able to leave their property to their spouse, to have the person who knows them best make life-altering decisions for them should they be unable to do so themselves, to adopt children and enter into custody agreements, to share health insurance, and to have their unions recognized as legitimate and worthy of  respect.

plus, if this thing passes and walt beats me, i'll have to just set him on fire while he sleeps.